Ordinarily, I haven't made it a habit (or point) to use this blog the way blogs "are supposed to be used" (even though the Internet is full of "blog-knowledgable" people who say how "blogs can be anything" these days.
In any case, I haven't used it for much, other to have a "contact point" and to try to explain (I'm someone who has become prone to feeling the need to explain, for a lot of different reasons I won't go into here) what, exactly, my "whole mess of online writing" is and that type of thing. Originally, it was going to be a "central point" for that online writing (and it pretty much still is), but I haven't added to all that "explaining" (etc.) the kind of regular posts that are generally associated with blogs. That's because I've done a lot of my free-time writing under a pen name (at the suggestion of some of the first sites on which I began writing); so when something goes on or there's an issue at hand, those are things I address as "me, the person" or "me, the real-name writer". That doesn't leave much left to be "addressed" or expounded on by a "part of me/my writing" as "the pen name person". In other words, I only have so much reason for, interest in, or enthusiasm for, writing under a name that isn't my real name.
Since I've only used the pen name on Internet writing sites/platforms, the main issues/concerns associated with that name have always pretty much been Internet-writing related. I'd thought that posting material related to Internet writing, or even just my own Internet writing, was what I'd be doing with this blog. (It was, I think, 2007 or so when I started it.) This thing is, however, that even though I've had my share of success with some Internet writing; there's an Internet-writing culture that essentially has always divided people into categories such as "marketing-minded", "don't care about earning and only want a place to post writing", "writing just for fun", or "writing for business and nothing but business" - that type of thing. I've never fit into any of those neatly defined categories; and since people in any of those categories are going to notice that I'm not "hook-line-and-sinker" into any of them, 1) I don't have anything much to offer anyone who is looking for information/expertise on any of the clearly separate groups of writers/content-producers, and 2) not to many people would be interested in what I had to say about Internet writing in any of those categories anyway.
Over recent times I've been in the process of "phasing away" from writing under the pen name, but I've got a lot of time and writing invested in work done under that name, so it wouldn't be entirely wise for me to "kill her off" completely online. I've set up some "name-transition" sites/blogs as a way of making a gradual transition with this stuff that I've done in my spare time (as compared to "real" work, which I've obviously always done under my real name).
In even more recent times, however, it has occurred to me that this might be a good place to post "traditional" blog posts about some of the gripes, concerns, etc. that I've run into as I've done that writing that is, for me, a free-time thing and yet that is far from silliness, "just fun", or a matter of killing time writing rather than, say, watching television. See, I've always had the thing that I was happy to be able to make good, productive, use of my free time while either gaining some extra income or gaining some enjoyment out of using that time to write online. Over time, however, I've realized more and more that I've been having more taken out of me as I've lived in this "online-writing world" than I have had my free time enhanced by it.
As I move toward "phasing" farther and farther away from using the pen name, while also aiming to tie up some loose ends and not entirely abandon what wouldn't be practical for me to abandon, I thought this blog might actually serve some purpose for me now; as I - for once and for all - stop trying to write stuff that only sometimes, kind of, occasionally, fits on other people's sites; and instead exercise more of my own (shall we say) freedom of speech - and more importantly, freedom of thought, expression, and whatever other kind of freedom I plan to re-claim in my choice of subjects, style, and standards.
My pen name may only be a meaningless name attached to stuff that is otherwise as real as the real person I am in offline life; but when all is said and done, it is, after all, still a reflection and expression of the real me (not to mention that it's actually established at this point as kind of a "dba" name on some "paperwork", so getting away from it isn't as clean-cut and simple as it might otherwise seem).